I’ve noticed lately that listening is normally colored by internal processes which lie outside of most people’s conciousness. So when I hear the hum of the A/C, or my car engine and the other cars whizzing by, it will have a certain “spin” on it. This is due to either internal commentary or internal pictures or movies which are VERY fast, faint, fuzzy, unclear and generally hard to notice. They associate to things in reality the way the dreams in a half-awake state associate to the things in one’s environment. I believe that these internals consititute the “subconcious.” I notice my own a lot more now (these are a lot of what you notice on LSD). I also can notice sometimes when other people are doing them.
This weekend, I was able to listen without spin, however. It’s a beautiful experience to actually hear the real auditory around me, and not have it the least bit colored by my mood, painted good or bad because I’m gleeful or down. Nor are the sounds tilted towards a past memory or compared to something else. I’ve been able to just let them stand on their own. Listening in this way creates a deep blissful feeling for me.